These words reflect

Sometimes I wish for falling, wish for the release

Wish for falling through the air to give me some relief

Because falling's not the problem, when I'm falling I'm at peace

It's only when I hit the ground it causes all the grief
- Florence and the Machine

Beautiful let down, just a few more weeks and this semester will be over. Just two more days and this paper will be out of my life... as I edit I dont give a shit what I get on it, as long as its higher then a c- my work here is done. Damn you Political Ecology and philosophies I do not understand. Gosh.

whose the biggest loser?

ME!!

25 pounds down in two and a half months, wasn't planning on it, but we will see how much more I will in the weeks to come....

Why we love GAGA

http://perezhilton.com/2009-11-22-why-the-gays-love-her

Snow must come... and fall

I want a snowfall kind of love
The kind of love that quiets the world
I want a snowfall kind of love
Cause I'm a snowfall kind of girl

I want a snowfall kind of love
That lights up the sky from below
I want a snowfall kind of love
That brings people to their window

Won't you bury me in your quiet love?
Oh bury me in your quiet love
Oh bury me in your quiet love
And we will blow away
- Ingrid Michaelson

Obama was a transfer student

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http://www.usnews.com/articles/education/2009/01/16/obamas-lessons-for-transfer-students.html

his life and my life are not so simple.

What I learned today

Lots about the Mississippi River and its history with dredging and environmental degradation.

and most importantly...

there is such a think as "Guys gone wild" thank you Logo channel for this commercial geared towards gay men it is paired well with the L word.

Favorite Image

My mom found this image in a paper one day and its been on our fridge ever since.
She said; "your the yellow one, different from the rest and trying to keep up with the pack".

My friends that know me well understand my fixation with little yellow ducks, and this is the reason. Each time I see that clipping it reminds me why I keep pushing and pushing.

Hardest of Hearts

I find it hard to look at life with a silver lining. Perhaps I have been become blind to lifes glories or perhaps I see that everyone smiles for no reason. My roommate has swine flu, I am domed. Great. And even with her having gone home to get well, she left her germs, that will infect me. I dont have time for illness.

As a tribute to my pessimistic attitude towards life I will be coming home to do work this weekend, locking myself in with tea and coffee, its going to be a long one.

Its times like these

Sometimes you need to know when to give in,
You need to know when to much is to much,
When too much is to little,
You need to know when you can’t take it anymore.

This has been an on going growing experience, October fuck you. I have dropped a class, taken on too much for me to handle and given in. Ouch, keep forgetting that I am not the type of person that can reading 500+ pages of reading every three days- still dyslexic after all this time.

I feel like I’ve failed, in so many ways. Academics are never my strong point, but I go to a good school so I have to make it 'seem' like I know what I am doing; this time it’s much harder.

I keep: Learning, growing, teaching others.

Personal life= saga (what else is new)

Doors have been slammed in face, literally/figuratively/spiritually. On the upside, I will have fresh-ink in this next month, hurray.